“It’s not up to you!”

The voice inaudible, but crystal clear, penetrated my heart. Perhaps the most beautiful aspect of the hearing was that it was SO true. It just “felt“ true – from someone greater, smarter, clearer than me. Certainly not from me. I don’t come up with stuff like that.

I am so eager to take the wheel of my life, in spite of the fact that often when I do I end up in the ditch, or worse. I want to “manage” those things that create fear and anxiety for me. I want to be in control.

These gremlins that pop up when least expected, are generally sources of comfort and security in my life. Finances, physical health, intimate relationships, and significance: those high risk/reward areas of my life where MY will has the potential to do tremendous damage.

I’m just laying it out there and hoping this resonates with other humanoids who may be listening. The combination of unacknowledged anxiety and MY will can be as volatile as jet fuel. 

Let’s dig into the unacknowledged aspect of this tomorrow. Meet you back here?

Trying to keep it real,

Jon