Longings

I have been thinking a lot. Or maybe you could say I’ve been longing a lot. We all long… But often we aren’t aware of it. I am trying to be much more aware of my longing.

In fact, unconscious longing can be dangerous for those of us living the gloriously human condition. I have seen in my own life, and in the lives of those close to me, unconscious or disowned longings can cause us to pursue those longings down some dangerous dark alleys. Whether sexual, relational, financial or vocational, we must consciously choose our longings. Freud’s prime directive says that we must make the unconscious conscious… and then we can choose. Until that happens, we simply have no choice; just reflex response.

But for me, right now, my greatest longing is for oneness. I long for deep and enduring connection. And I know that that longing for oneness must start off with its spiritual expression and work its way down to human oneness. I long for a deep spiritual intimacy; a sense of being known and knowing. When I experience this, it provides me with a sense of purpose and direction that I crave. When I feel a deep connection with a spiritual center for my life, life does not feel random and chaotic. Life feels purposeful and a part of a larger plan for my life. It feels like a plan for good provided by a loving and kind higher power. A higher power who desires my best… the best for all living the gloriously human condition. This is the higher power that I believe my heart is designed to seek out. It is the higher power or God that feels too good to be true, but in reality… Is true.

I long for that God. I long to experience oneness with him… and oddly enough, he seems to have the same longing for oneness with me. He desires for me to know him and be known by him.

That is who he is. He is complete interconnectedness. Because he is love by definition, he cannot choose to be otherwise. And he simply cannot stop reaching out for me… Or any other one of his children who live the gloriously human condition. Seem like it’s too good to be true? I know at times it feels that way for me, but in reality, it’s truer than anything I’ve ever known. And, I simply would hate to live in any other world than this one in which love lives at the very center!

What about you? What do you long for most deeply?